Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Going for a visit!!



I'm not nearly as good with words as Robbie is, but I will do my best. We recevied approval today to go visit Riley!! This will be such a fantastic trip. We are both so excited! We will have Riley to ourselves for 3 whole days. Robbie received some terrible news her sister in law passed away this evening. Robbie will be on her way to AZ, and then return for our trip to Guatemala to see Riley. Here are some pictures of Riley that we have received over the last few months. We typically get new pictures every month. We both hope we con go bring her home permanently soon!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Baby face




March 20th was a great day. I had an early appointment for a CT scan, no problems, just a routine check up. Anyway, I was getting caught up on our adoption progress with one of the techs that I'm friends with. I had brought her up to speed and promised to let her know as soon as we had any news to share. I went out to my car and called Brian to let him know how things went and OH MAMA, was that ever a call to remember! Brian told me he had some good news and I just assumed it was work related. He told me that we had a referral for a three month old baby girl! I can't begin to tell you how wonderful that felt. I went right back upstairs and told my friend, she was almost as stunned as I was . I was only about two minutes away from my chemo clinic so I had to go and tell my friends there. This child is going to have so many aunt's she won't know what to do. I know I started calling family and friends blubbering like an idiot, nothing new in that some would say. Brian had told me that we had pictures on e-mail but before I could go home I had a very important stop to make. Babies-r-us!!!!!!!! I don't even remember what I bought that day, my head was so high in the clouds . Dawn called me while I was there to let me know she had seen the pics and that I needed to get home to see how beautiful my daughter was. Wow, my daughter! I just can't believe that I get to say those words. When I got home and opened that e-mail I thought my heart would burst. One look at that sweet face and I was lost forever! Did you see those cheeks? I can't wait to kiss those fat things.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

The paper chase

If you ever thought buying a house involved a massive amount of paper work, you ain't seen nothin yet. Multiply the mortgage process by about five times and you might come close! It was just very fortunate for me that I have a husband who has no problem wading through endless requests for this that and the other. If it was left to me to handle, well we would probably have had to settle for another dog. This will balance out in the long run because Brian is just as intimidated by dirty diapers as I am paper work. Did I say balance? I think he will be changing a few dirties after all! Believe me, I will have the camcorder ready to roll on his first attempt. I'm hoping it will be good enough to send into America's funniest home videos. Maybe we'd win and be able to offset the cost of this adoption. Hey, it's worth a try.

We found out early on that due to my medical history that we were not going to be able to adopt through Russia or any part of eastern Europe. Not a problem. You see, I don't care what country we adopt from. I can love any child of any color. I just want to be Mama. Guatemala did not have a problem approving me. Their main concern is finding good homes for their kids.

So after Brian made sure that all the I's were dotted and the T's crossed we sent off stacks of tree products with the appropriate golden government seals. And then we waited.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

The long hard road


This is a story that begins about four years ago. Brian and I had been married about nineteen years and had been unable to have children. We began looking into foreign adoption through a Russian orphanage. As we all know, life doesn't always go as planned.

During a routine Dr visit I told my Doc about my little dog Yoda jumping on my chest and making me sore. She wanted me to have a baseline mamogram just to make sure everything was o.k. Three weeks later I was told there was a problem. The problem turned out to be stage four breast cancer. Needless to say our plans for adoption were out of the question. During the course of my treatments we suffered another devastating blow. Brian had been laid off from his job without warning. Now we not only faced a life threatening illness, but the possible loss of our home as well. It was almost too much to bear.

After twenty rounds of chemo, including a new cancer suppression drug, experimental microwave therapy, surgery and radiation, I went into remission. This was only the medical part of our ordeal. I can honestly say I don't believe I would have survived without faith. I had countless numbers of people praying for me on a regular basis. That was a source of comfort and strength that I could not have done without. I also had my sweet Brian who cared for me with so much love and patience that he should be nominated for sainthood. I also had My mom-in-law Charlene and my friend Dawn, both cancer survivors, who gently guided me through all the insane and dark thoughts that are a very real part of cancer. Three other very special ladies, Julie, Darlene and Bettye made sure that my sense of humor was intact and refused to let me give into fear and grief. My family made sure that I knew how much I was loved. My Great nieces and nephews sent me a card each week for two years. I can't put into words my gratitude for all the people involved in my recovery. I was blessed with two of the most wonderful Doctors you could ask for. Dr. Lynn Clark and Dr. Frank Senecal. My nurses have the utmost compassion and care for their patients. I know that all of this would not have been possible without a lot of answered prayers.

After being out of work for five long months Brian finally found a wonderful job. Even though he wasn't working, it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. He was able to be with me every step of the way. I can't imagine going through this without him. He got me thru the deaths of my parents, now he was helping me fight for my own life. Yeah I know it's corny, but he completes me!

Skip ahead about two years and we're pretty much back to normal. Our friends Lars and Dawn inform us that they are going to adopt a child. I had a lot of mixed emotions when I heard this news. I was thrilled for them, but it also brought back the disappointment of our having to give up that dream. Lars made a point of telling Brian that Dawn had survived nine years after her own battle with stage three ovarian cancer. He reminded Brian that there are no guaranteed tomorrows. I'm ashamed to say we had seen that as a reason not to try adoption. We were both unsure that Brian could handle being a single parent. Lars pointed out that it could just as easily be me raising a child on my own. He and Dawn urged us not to give up on our dream of having our own rugrat. I really hate to give him any credit and risk inflating his ego, but well, he really did a good thing. They were blessed with a beautiful little girl from Kazakhstan. Now we get to be aunt and uncle to Lauren, aka LuLu.